Wednesday, November 13th, 2013
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Ask Polly: I Am So Jealous Of This Other Girl!

Dear Polly,

I am hoping you might help me with a peculiar personal problem. I apologize in advance if this is a bit vague. To begin with, I am your average 28-year-old fun-time party gal who is often overly drunk/brash, 'one of the guys,' sensitive to criticism/weirdo childhood and thus live a smaller life which I've overall been happy doing with great girlfriends of my own, cool hobbies, owning my own home, working a well-paying not particularly prestigious helping-people job that affords me lots of free time to do whatever I want. I definitely need therapy & a journal, which I plan to do, soon.

I've lived in a certain medium-sized city since moving here after college and just last year I began dating someone (great) with a cool group of friends—I've had a lot of fun. Recently boyfriend's Best Friend began dating a new girl with prior connections to the friend group; she just moved to town over the summer. The problem? Whenever I'm around New Girl, I feel like garbage; through no fault of her own. She is nothing but polite and friendly and unobjectionable in every way. Also not drunk and embarrassing at social functions. Of course, in the past, I've met/become great friends with women who are smarter, more beautiful, more accomplished but I've somehow always been ok enough with my own special-snowflakeness to preserve my baby cool-girl ego. I suppose New Girl might be my particular brand of snow, but hers is Neimans and mine is Marshalls. I went to a smart person school, new girl went to the smartest person school, I've always dabbled in writing, new girl was a real writer, I work in a particular field, this person is now going to school in this same-ish helping people field—to basically be the boss of me (if you get my drift). Even our looks are similar. But I feel like that's not really it?

My boyfriend did once admit offhand that he had a crush on her, which makes me feel bad but not overly worried, as new girl and Boyfriend's Best Friend appear to be starring in the greatest movie romance of all time. Maybe I am just jealous of her whole life. Whenever I am around New Girl, my jaw is clenched, my fur fully bristled. I have to work really hard to be friendly and not weird or rude or standoffish, while inside my head I just want to move really far away, like drop everything and high-tail it to the other side of the country. I've brought it up to my sister, my friends, but they're all basically like "what's your problem? She's so great!" I have never had this problem with another human being before, no jealousy issues etc, so I'm pretty confused about why I'm all of a sudden cruising Craigslist housing ads in low-population western mountain towns.

Please advise.

Greener and Greener




Dear Greener and Greener,

God, I love letters about jealousy. Love them. Because jealousy is delicious and terrible and it's a gift from the gods above. Yes, it will eat you alive and turn you into a monster and ruin your life. But it's also really rich and mysterious and not unlike falling madly in love—in its own twisted, deeply dissatisfying way.

Jealousy arouses the passions within. It gives you important information about your identity, your ego, your vanities and what's missing from your life.

You say you're jealous of her whole life. What, specifically, do you want that she has and you don't? Look closely at that. Maybe this small, manageable life that you've carved out isn't really big enough for you, now that you're comfortable and safe and aren't really making giant messes everywhere you go anymore. (Um. I assume you're not making giant messes anymore. If not, that's something to consider fixing.)

It's natural for women who are a little wild and unsteady emotionally to relentlessly seek safety in smallness, and in settling for whatever they can get. When I was younger, I was reckless, arrogant, insecure, and aggressive and I sometimes toggled between semi-destructive behavior and extremely hermetic avoidance. Most of all, I never dared to reach for or ask for too much. But after years of this toggling, I could see that the life I built was a little small. Now don't get me wrong: I love small. Scrappy is comforting to me. Cool makes me itch a little. I feel slightly prickly when I spend too much time in places that aren't a little middle/working class, a little dive bar. And I like slouching around the house in my soft pants. That's living, as far as I'm concerned. That said, though, when you spend a good chunk of your time hanging around the concrete yard of a public elementary school, talking about random domestic trivia, you do have to ask yourself: Do I want to grow older and lumpier and more disheveled by the year? Do I want to spend the rest of my life putting together elaborate Lego Friends cruise ships and eating nachos and watching "The Voice"? (I know, nachos. Fuck yes to the nachos.) OR am I a big bright force of fucking nature that needs ambitious creative projects and very tall leather boots and grandiosity and giant icy cocktails and dancing and I AM GOING TO LIVE LARGE, GODDAMN IT, SO FUCK THIS CULTURE AND ITS COUGAR-SHAMING SEXIST HORSE SHIT.

It's healthy to ignore the SHOULDS: I SHOULD be cooler than I am, and live in a house that looks like a Boutique Hotel. But it's not healthy to ignore the things you truly want. I want to take on new challenges and feel good in my skin and drink a giant icy cocktail.

So feel what you feel about New Girl. That's the first step. Let it tell you something about the smallness, the mediocrity, the compromises of your current life. Now ask yourself: What does she do better than you, exactly? I mean, fuck the smartest school. The smartest or best anything is a mirage. What else, though? What does she show you, not about what you SHOULD be, but about what you WANT to be? Write it all down.

This process alone may solve some of your troubles with New Girl. But let's go one step further, because you're all tight and angry around this woman. Do you think she's full of shit and she acts like she's happier than she actually is? What makes you so mad? DO YOU TRULY BELIEVE SHE'S A BETTER PERSON THAN YOU? If so, why? Is she more generous? Is she more patient? Does she listen more closely?

Maybe you feel like you need to grow up, finally. And maybe some stubborn part of your ego wants to be the most alluring, special girl in the room. But if you're fixated on being the special one, the smart one, the hot one, it really does prevent you from being a person at all. You are marketing your product. You're not living.

And when someone is in that state, everyone else knows it. I met someone like that recently. She'd ask me a question and her face would look so beautiful and interested, and then the second I opened my mouth to answer her, her face would turn snarly and ugly. It was incredible to watch. That's what a ravenous ego-hunger does to people, when they chase down bigger and bigger ego rewards without looking closely at themselves. A lot of the celebrities have this sickness, just from being in the public eye and recognizing how tough it is to stay there. And because we see these people on our TV screens, we sometimes trick ourselves into thinking THAT'S WHAT SUCCESS LOOKS LIKE, instead of just calling it what it is: a personality collapsing under the weight of its own narcissism and ravenous ego hunger.

So you have to walk a fine line. You have to make sure that you're honoring your desires. But you also have to give up on being the special one, the flashy one. Just be a person in the room. Let New Girl shine. Befriend her. Listen to her. Be generous and forgive her for whatever flaws she has. At the very least, behave that way and your feelings may follow. This is an opportunity for you. You are advancing to a more generous state.

But you have to accept that you are not the best, and you will never be the best. This sounds like admitting defeat, but it's actually one of the finest victories you'll ever achieve. Start with vulnerability, and humility, and then dare to ask for more from your life.

And keep reading, because I got another jealousy letter this week that takes this New Girl story to a whole new, terrifying level….

Polly




Hi Polly,

This question has been asked countless times before in other advice columns, but you're my favorite and I would love to hear your take/be the recipient of your tough love. How do I stop feeling jealous of my boyfriend's ex?

The back story: My boyfriend and I have been together for one year and it's been great. He is the first man I've ever loved and we met through our shared passions (people who follow this column: accepting a lifetime alone and exploring your own hobbies/projects and truly being okay with your single circumstances works wonders on meeting kind, interesting individuals! Not just people you end up falling in love with!). My "problem" is, I'm not the first woman he's loved. I was perfectly okay with this reality until I met his ex while we were on a wedding-turned-vacation trip a few months ago. She was beautiful and charming, well-traveled and the life of the party. After a few drinks, she pulled me aside during the wedding reception and told me, through tears, that she just wanted my boyfriend to be happy. I knew very little about their time together and was confused by her need to tell me this. My boyfriend quickly informed me that their relationship didn't end on great terms and there was suspected cheating on her part. He reassured me that he had zero feelings towards her and he was annoyed that she seemed to think she ruined his shot at happiness. It was a really bizarre day.

The second leg of our vacation, after the wedding, was at my boyfriend's previous city of residence. He loved it there. It's vastly different from where we live now and he wanted to show me this part of his past. Of course, this city was the city where he and his ex lived together for a few years. He would casually reference things they did together. "This was mine and ex's street, our old apartment is over there," "This is where ex liked to shop," and so on. Their old neighborhood was picturesque and perfect and exactly where I saw myself living a few years out. I found myself hating her for already experiencing the shared life I wanted with him, in this wonderful place. Ugh, it's so stupid that I spent a significant portion of that trip thinking such negative, ridiculous, jealous thoughts. I couldn't not think about it at the time, considering I had just met her days before and it seemed as though she was everywhere. After a few days of learning about his life in that city and hearing more about his relationship with the ex, I finally told him that I really didn't want to talk about her anymore. He got the hint.

So, here I am months later, feeling the occasional pangs of insecurity and jealousy any time something reminds me of her. And then I get sad thinking about how he will never have to experience the same worry about my previous relationships because they were all so fleeting. That sounds kind of terrible—I don't want my boyfriend to be jealous of anyone! I guess I just don't like the imbalance that I'm making up in my head. I've heard the standard advice, "He's with you for a reason! She's in his past for a reason! Your respective paths crossed for a reason!" and that outlook really makes sense. He never gives me reason to doubt his love or his intentions. I guess some some days I just worry that I'm not as exciting (she was a flight attendant and they took frequent excursions to remote places at no cost, how does that even happen!) or as interesting (she's lived all over the world, I've lived in various parts of Appalachia) or as sexy (my boyfriend made the terrible mistake of telling me she was a highly sexual person and could orgasm multiple times during a broader discussion of why I have a difficult time relaxing during sex, sigh). One of his friends posted a group picture from that wedding today on Facebook and in it, my boyfriend is seated between his ex and me. I couldn't stop thinking about how they looked better together and had a way cooler relationship and that spiraled into more destructive, unnecessary thoughts. I immediately hid the picture and decided to message you to prevent further craziness.

I haven't really talked to my boyfriend about this because I know it's wildly unattractive to admit that you've been comparing yourself to a former lover. I figured it was something I would just get over and hopefully that proves to be the case in time. Polly, can you tell me how to stop fretting over something that shouldn't even be an issue?

Sick of Feeling Jealous





Dear SOFJ,

Oh sweet Jesus, yes. I love your letter, not only because this situation is the stuff of nightmares, but because your perspective on this woman is all twisted. Yes, she's charming, she travels a lot, she's gorgeous, whatever. I mean, I get it. I don't blame you. And maybe she and your guy do look perfect together. But I guarantee you, he doesn't care about that, and no one else does, either. It might as well be the juicy shame-the-protagonist subplot of a girl movie. Irrelevant.

But speaking of juicy subplots, next we come to the two details that really tell us everything we need to know:

1. Dream girl was multi-orgasmic. (!!!)

2. Dream girl wants you to know that she loves your boyfriend soooo much and all she wants is for him to be happy. SHE'S NOT JEALOUS, NOT HER! SHE JUST WANTS YOU TO KNOW (sniff, sniff) HOW INCREDIBLY HAPPY SHE WANTS HIM TO BE.

So ask yourself this: Why does she want YOU to know this? Why? Why wouldn't she just tell HIM that?

Here's why: He does not give a FUCK about her.

And here's why he doesn't give a fuck: BECAUSE SHE'S A FUCKING CRAZY PERSON.

Now follow this train of thought with me, uncharitable though it might seem: This exgirlfriend is nuttier than a nut log. You have unwittingly stumbled on the Angelina Jolie of the mortal world. (Angelina's not mortal. She's not even human, because she's not competitive at all, she has a great big heart and an enduring soul and she just happens to look perfect and sound perfect every single second of her life while she's CARING FOR THE WORLD'S CHILDREN.)

Looky here. Generally speaking, we don't call other ladies crazy. That's called Making Bad Choices. We don't cast aspersions on women who are just being happy and nice—like New Girl in that first letter. Her niceness makes us feel mean, but that's our problem, not hers.

But this Angelina of yours: She's different. And we are allowed to fucking notice that she's a troublemaker. Because only a troublemaker corners you and starts talking about him. You have nothing at all to do with him and her, them! You didn't know a goddamn thing about THEM or HER before now! She wanted you to think about her, to know that they mattered once, pure and simple. But she couldn't say, "Oh Jesus, this is weird for me, but I'm happy for you guys." Or better yet, say nothing. No. She couldn't talk to him directly. She couldn't merely smile at you and chat about nothing, real friendly-like. She couldn't make a joke about his bad habits, or something casual in passing. No. She needed you to know how passionately she feels for him. She needed YOU to know that she existed, that she mattered to him once.

I mean, come on, lady! Why? What kind of a giant stupid sad narcissistic ego needs to announce itself to the new girlfriend? I'm friends with my exes and some of their wives on Facebook. I don't send them personal notes saying that I just want their fucking husbands to be happy! I am pleased to see photos of their adorable babies and the like. Do I hope that my exes are happy? Yes, even the ones who were dicks. Do I tell their wives that? FUCK NO I DO NOT, because why would they care?

So she waves her hands around—I MATTER I MATTER!—and now you're like, "Hold on, who is this?" Your boyfriend didn't say a word about her, did he?

Oh, wait, hold on, he did say something… ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHE'S MULTIORGASMIC. Oh my fucking Christ. Look. First you have to know that he was just trying to tell you that he's good in bed, really really good, so whatever you're not feeling isn't his fault. Not very smart of him, but that was accidental. He was protecting his own ego, not reminiscing. He was trying to say that you need to loosen up and get a little crazy, when it's equally true that he needs to learn more stuff about how to operate your goddamn machinery.

And he thinks he's great in bed because HIS EX IS A LYING LIAR WHO LIES.

She doesn't really want him to be happy, and she's not multiorgasmic. No fucking way. This Angelina of yours is a charming, perfect, world-traveler and she's A FUCKING ACTRESS.

Now, I'm not saying I know this for a fact. Being multi-orgasmic isn't so rare, particularly once you have a partner you really trust who adores you and isn't constantly monitoring your response so he can stick a little gold star on his dick (ahem!). Once you know what you want and how to get it and you're not worried how you look or act when you're doing it, it's possible. But the supreme hotness of sex does wax and wane regardless. I'd sort of like to know if Angelina came three or four times every single fucking time they had sex. Because if she did, I'm going to go ahead and CALL BULLSHIT ON HER RIGHT NOW.

Of course you can't tell your boyfriend she was faking it. He's too invested in her as a sign of his mad skills in the sack. That's his cross to bear, I guess, one that I doubt is helping him in the skill-attainment department.

Anyway, let's review what we've learned by slipping into full-on aggressive combat mode with Angelina: She's batshit crazy and a liar and she fakes orgasms with great gusto. This explains why your boyfriend isn't actually all that passionate about her. She annoys him. He doesn't want her back. He may not know that she's a faker but he does know very well that she's a fake and she's nuts and she's not what he wants, not even a little bit. This also explains why she cheated on him: She's a narcissist. Some other guy came along and flattered her a little, she had to fuck him and whip out her multiple orgasms for his benefit, so he'd know just how supremely Best Woman Ever she is. She couldn't say no to that. She had to prove to this other guy, who didn't even matter, that she was The Dreamgirl of the Universe.

So there's your very uncharitable, bad-energy explanation. I don't believe in skipping that step. I don't believe in saying "She's wonderful, you're wonderful, let's all go in peace," immediately. This is a learning fucking moment, people! Lean the fuck in!

But now let's try something different. Let's assume that Angelina is trying, very very hard, to be happy for your boyfriend, but she's struggling with it a little. She was drinking and she told YOU this because she knew HE wouldn't care. He cut her off completely after she cheated, and that was incredibly hard for her. Maybe she is a wonder in the sack, in addition to being beautiful and charming, and because of this, men sleep with her and they almost never break up with her, but sometimes they don't really like who she is deep down inside anyway. And that haunts her, because she IS a good person, really, but she never feels like anyone really loves her for her. Even so, she sleeps with men too soon because she can't resist showing them her sexual prowess. She always wins them once she gets them to bed. She can't help but pull that trigger and seal the deal, even if it means spending her entire relationship feeling like she has to prove that she's really smart and lovable, in addition to being gorgeous and charming.

See, this story is much more convincing, and it's also, mysteriously enough, compatible with our more aggressive thesis. She's either a real Dream Girl or a partially fake Dream Girl, but the bottom line is that being a Dream Girl is much harder than it looks from the outside.

This woman is a robust brand. And we don't know what it's like to feel that everyone wants to consume you. We can't crawl inside her skin. But she made mistakes and your boyfriend dropped her. She is jealous of you. She cried to you. She is hurting. She is in the past and she knows it.

You're the only one who doesn't know it.

Let her go. She doesn't make your life more interesting, and she doesn't make you smaller and less worthy. Give her your sympathy and release her. Let her teach you a lesson about trying to be the Best Woman Ever: It backfires, and it's lonely and it sucks.

Here's another lesson for you: You need to talk to your boyfriend about sex a lot more. You need to work hard to have complex, vulnerable, thoughtful, rambling talks with him about your feelings and his. He needs to let you in, and you need to let him in. He needs to know more about what you want in bed, a lot more. You need permission to be a little unresponsive until you aren't anymore. He needs to know that you won't get there if you're acting or thinking you're a disappointment the whole time. You have to start with nothing and build something together. You don't have to go on about the ex—and if you do bring her up, I would be very clear about the fact that she doesn't matter, except as a symbol of something. She made you worry, and wonder if you really know him, if you really know what he wants from his life, from you. You want to share yourself with him more, to feel truly deeply connected at another, more trusting level, which will help you to understand yourselves and each other moving forward.

Lean into the vulnerability that this jealousy kicked up in you. Don't stop at "She's fucking crazy, that ex of his!" Don’t' stop at self-protection and defensiveness and counter attacks. Something beautiful is opening up to you now. More love, more connection, more security, more possibility. It starts with you forgiving her for trying to make herself bigger than you—and bigger than she really is. It starts with you feeling empathy for her loneliness and her need to matter to you. It starts with you forgiving yourself for not having traveled, for not being more charming, for not being gorgeous from every goddamn angle. It starts with you being chumpy and small and not all that good in bed. That's so lovable, you don't even know. You are not that experienced. You are not smooth and unstoppable and swaggery and special. You are thoughtful and easily upstaged and here's the secret: When you are upstaged, the world loves you more.

He loves you more. He just does.

He needs to figure out how to show it a little better, and when to shut his fat mouth. You need to figure out how to receive it, and believe it. This exgirlfriend of his is bright and shiny, but you are solid and real and you don't know how to shine more brightly. You don't know how to lie, and that's what's nice about you. You are humble and angry and fallible. He wants you.

Polly





Jealous again? Jealous like a good American? Write to Polly and let's talk about being jealous forever and ever and ever..

Heather Havrilesky (aka Polly Esther) is The Awl's existential advice columnist. She's also a regular contributor to The New York Times Magazine, and is the author of the memoir Disaster Preparedness (Riverhead 2011). She blogs here about scratchy pants, personality disorders, and aged cheeses. Photo by Laszlo Ilyes.

37 Comments / Post A Comment

Olivia2.0 (#1,716)

LW#2 – TRUST ME – I have been this woman – and Polly is right. She's only talking to you b/c he gives zero fucks about her!

Jen@twitter (#241,393)

"(people who follow this column: accepting a lifetime alone and exploring your own hobbies/projects and truly being okay with your single circumstances works wonders on meeting kind, interesting individuals! Not just people you end up falling in love with!)"

THIS IS THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH! As much as I was sad sometime for being single for years on end (over a decade, really) and spend a good amount of time wondering why oh why people didn't seem to want to date me, I would never change a single thing about all that time because I have met some of the most interesting, inspiring, and awesome people ever. I've also tried so many new hobbies and traveled and eaten foods and all this amazing stuff because I figured "Hey, why not! I'm certainly not going to just sit at home alone all the time just because I am single and don't know anyone in this new city. Why not give this crazy thing a shot and see what comes of it!?" My life has been nothing short of awesome.

marina (#252,620)

Polly is probably right about LW2's ex's attempt to talk to her as being an act of narcissistic desperation, but is anyone else bothered by her demonization of the multi-orgasmic woman? As if no woman could claim to have multiple orgasms without most definitely being a crazy liar. And possessing this magical quality (that she is faking) must be the defining aspect of all her relationships. What?
Sure, it may not happen to every woman, but this kind of hating just seems unhelpful and embittered.

lbf (#2,343)

@marina I read it as a mind game she's offering to LW#2 – the "very uncharitable, bad-energy explanation". Then she switches to another hypothesis, which we'll call "the 'Japanese Gum' first verse hypothesis" because Her Space Holiday is totally underrated. Letting the hate flow through you and bad faith aren't prescriptions for everything, but sometimes they help.

lunaesque (#253,648)

@marina , agreed, had multiples with my husband 99% of the time (but as Polly pointed out, it was possible due to the development of a deep passionate relationship over time), no craziness and lies involved! What is a bit hateful is that boyfriend had to bring it up. Hmm.

HeatherH (#241,099)

It does veer into hating a little, which is, you know, not entirely enlightened on my part. I think the boyfriend mentioning that his ex was multiorgasmic got my back up, particularly in the context of the ex's teary Angelina-like confession. And then the theory that she might be a lying liar just made simple sense. But you did read to the end, yes? Because, while we indulged the nasty side of this, we were meant to land firmly in the realm of "We don't know her, he has moved past her, she is feeling things, let's give her our love and move on."

I mean, this might be my weakness, but when you confess to feeling jealous and then the other person comes back and says, "Wow, you really are a sad little troll for feeling that way."? I prefer to dive right into the mess and the hatred and then climb out of it together. Because no one is immune from these feelings and these sorts of assumptions, so why pretend to be? We get a little brutal, and then we back up and brush ourselves off and we take a higher path. (After taking the lower one.)

Anyway, I hear what you're saying, completely. I'm trying to be both savage and forgiving in this one. It's more fun that way, even if it's not 100 percent generous or ideal. As for whether she's ACTUALLY multiorgasmic or not, I don't know. How common is faking orgasms these days? My mailboxes indicate that it's VERY VERY COMMON.

marina (#252,620)

@HeatherH Yeah, revealing such details about ex-lovers is always a very stupid, no good idea, the confession is pretty good evidence of crazy, and I do generally agree with the rest of your advice. I just think the LW and women in general would probably have a healthier sexual attitude by not believing this woman to be lying about her orgasms (though it may bring some consolation in the short term) and recognizing that we are creatures with some awesome pleasure potential. (Ha, how did I become so New-Age-y?)

HeatherH (#241,099)

@marina See, I'm not worrying about second-guessing or maligning the multiorgasmic, so much as worrying about stigmatizing those who think they're falling short if they're NOT multiorgasmic (at a youngish age, with a newish partner, in a maybe-not-always-totally-communicative relationship). But it's true, as you say, that women often don't realize their own potential. And with realizing your potential comes, all too often, NEW AGE-Y-NESS! Bah!

FlufferNutter (#245,764)

Oh, Polly. When you first started writing this column, I didn't like your advice. And now I cannot even remember why, because since then I have fallen in LOVE with your advice. You consistently just KILL IT. Your words are smart and funny and wise. You cause me to have revelations and to get amped up about my own life and want more out of it. And… I just think you're really cool. The end.

Xenu01 (#244,135)

I am so glad you veered into a little hatey hate on behalf of LW #2, you know? Because what this girl does NOT need is "He's with you for a reason! She's in his past for a reason! Your respective paths crossed for a reason!" I mean- not JUST that. Look, it took a long time for me to get to the point in my relationship where I wasn't comparing myself to The Ex (In my case, they were engaged and SHE dumped HIM so he was all sadness and regret for a while about her). The truth was, I needed to build myself a little secret book of Why She Sucks in my heart before I could lock it away. Now it's all so ludicrous but when our relationship was new and fragile, I was scared.

ragazza (#241,456)

Guys: Never tell us that your ex was multiorgasmic. This seems like an obvious no-no. I imagine they wouldn't like us telling them about how our ex had a huge penis, too big really, no, yours is perfect!

mochi (#232,676)

god polly is so good.

misspiggy (#250,319)

Coming three or four times every time? It's normal for a minority of us, just like having red hair or being double-jointed. Bad, fake people can be multi-orgasmic and uptight people can be multi-orgasmic. Not many are going to write to advice columnists about their physiological good luck.

No way should the boyfriend have suggested that if the LW loosens up she will magically start doing it right. And no way should the boyfriend have thought his ex's orgasms were particularly to do with his awesome bedroom skills.

I agree that Polly's conclusion is still correct – the LW is real and precious and the boyfriend should appreciate that even more than he already does.

sharilyn (#4,599)

In addition to this being fantastic, world-beating advice; it's also beautifully written. POLLY FOR BENEVOLENT DICTATOR.

Xenu01 (#244,135)

One time this terrible guy I was seeing subjected me to an hour long tirade about how every woman he'd ever slept with liked being choked during sex. EVERY. ONE. What was WRONG with me?

It still took me a whole lot longer to dump him than it should have.

Xenu01 (#244,135)

—-> so basically everyone? Stop telling your sex partners about your old sex partners. New partner= new sexy clean slate. The end. I mean, tell everyone what you like and don't like. No need to tell them why unless you're having a sharing time. The end, really.

PistolPackinMama (#231,054)

@Xenu01 Oh, hey, I had an ex who assured me that EVERY LAST WOMAN he'd ever slept with had either a Brazilian or waxed everything all off. Never mind he, like me, was a young adult in the 90's. And he was a crusty bike guy and worked on organic hippie farms and dated a wide range of kinds of women. Every single woman he'd slept with before me waxed everything (mostly off). No, really.

I suppose it's true, but I doubt it. A lot.

Especially since it turns out he wasn't entirely honest about other things through our relationship. So you know. Relevant past behavior and all that.

And I don't understand why he thought trying to imply my unwaxed self was somehow freakishly abnormal and I was truculent and odd was going to work. Especially since my feeling was "well that's nice… not gonna wax jack until you make the appointment and pay for it… and I choose the waxer… oh hey wait you don't want to pay $60.00 so I can go to the best European waxer in the city? Well my extremely sensitive lady skin and I will have to disappoint you, then, because it's infected ingrown hair city for me otherwise."

I may have feelings about that.

Xenu01 (#244,135)

@PistolPackinMama Oh my goodness, *I* have feelings about that!

Stories like this one make me want to start up a face-punch delivery service.

crunchybits (#252,629)

Great advice, Polly. Also, I'm really glad so many commenters are stepping in to defend women who have multiple orgasms, as I'm sure their plight is truly horrible.

katherine (#10,025)

Wait, so let me get this straight. Being drunk and being teary about an ex you probably loved and maybe made some stupid, terrible decisions about – at a wedding, where alcohol is readily available and relationship thoughts are unavoidably at the forefront – makes you A FUCKING CRAZY PERSON now? Good to know. (I'm not even going to touch the multi-orgasmic = crazy thing, no matter how much it plays dead-straight-into a lot of crap narratives about sex and mental illness. It isn't about "oh no their plight is horrible," it is about how one is wired sexually has nothing to do with how good of a person they are? It's the same principle as "if you have trouble with things in bed you're just a cold frigid unloving bitch," just in reverse.)

So if someone were to write to you, saying "It's been a year and I can't seem to get over my ex-boyfriend. I know it's wrong and I know I was at fault because I cheated, but every time I think of him I get teary. I just want him to be happy, but I feel like I threw away the love of my life. Recently I was at a wedding and I saw his new girlfriend, and it just brought all of it back, and I really tried to go out of my way to be nice and accepting of her but I was drunk and it came out drunk," the response would be "Sorry, you are a FUCKING CRAZY PERSON and also a giant stupid sad lying liar who lies, and oh by the way you are exactly like this person who is not mortal and not even human, in summary probably just die?" Because that sure seems to me like what's going on. I know you sort of back off on that later on, but… it's also there, and it's also the first thing that's mentioned, and I find it weird given that the tone of all your other columns is "experiencing emotions or sometimes making mistakes about how you express them does not make you crazy."

crunchybits (#252,629)

@katherine Did you read the rest of the article? That was her nasty version, and then she wrote a kinder version of what's up with this girl.

katherine (#10,025)

@crunchybits I know, but even the explanation doesn't really back off on it. (Like, "her need to matter to you"? That's a hell of an assumption to make — "she pulled me aside during the wedding reception and told me, through tears, that she just wanted my boyfriend to be happy" seems to me exactly like how "Oh Jesus, this is weird for me, but I'm happy for you guys" would come through after a few drinks — but even if it is, SO WHAT? What's wrong with wanting to feel like you matter? That seems like a pretty fundamentally human emotion. And it doesn't make someone crazy. Particularly not when the sum total of the "troublemaking" was a more or less polite comment.)

I don't know, I guess I don't see responding to "How can I deal with being jealous of this person?" with "It's okay, she is just a FUCKING CRAZY PERSON because orgasms and Angelina Jolie" as empathetic, even just as a thought experiment.

millipedes (#252,659)

@katherine "What's wrong with wanting to feel like you matter?"

Nothing is wrong with wanting to feel like you matter. Something is deeply wrong with wanting to matter to the new girlfriend of your ex, and trying to make yourself matter by pulling her aside the first time you meet her and crying about how happy you want him to be. Do you really disagree with that? Just because it's okay to *have* a feeling doesn't mean that it's okay to express it any way you want, to anyone you want. And this particular mode of expression was wildly inappropriate in a way that even the most charitable interpretation of her motives can't make up for. And to suggest that she did it out of insecurity (i.e. wanting to matter) is about as charitable as you can get; otherwise we're talking about someone actively trying to cause trouble.

Xenu01 (#244,135)

@millipedes Yes!! Thank you for this.

HeatherH (#241,099)

@katherine As I wrote in the column, I think there's some value in taking the voodoo-doll approach to "enemies," so that the anger around that symbolic figure is expunged. The column ultimately landed in a very different place from that. And yes, of course there's a giant difference between someone who's writing to me for advice and someone who plays a (mostly symbolic, and very confusing) part in the letter writer's story. My job in this case isn't to advise a woman about whether or not to cry to an ex's girlfriend at a wedding (hint: I feel you, but DON'T DO IT!), my job is to advise a woman about handling the aftermath of said ex-girlfriend's teary confrontation.

All of that aside, are you really trying to say, "No more playful recklessness or thought experiments, not ever, for any reason!"? Because I don't think this column would be all that interesting if I took that to heart.

18000449@twitter (#247,007)

Hey boyfriend of the second letter writer: A woman's orgasm is about 70% her and maybe 30% you. I used to never have orgasms until I taught myself how to do it mindfully by myself. Yeah, I thought about dicks while doing it but that was 100% me, bro.
So if this chick did have multiple orgasms, it wasn't really something to brag about for your sake.

goldpen (#244,742)

@katherine….I'm sorry but crying to the new girlfriend of your ex does MAKE YOU CRAZY. That's just plain nutty behavior, through and through. Maybe temporary and maybe now she's embarrassed but the fact is, it makes her a person who LW should NOT be jealous of. A person who feels good about themselves and their life doesn't behave like that. People who are sad and a bit out of control do. And what she said wasn't polite, it was dumping on a total stranger. I mean, how did Angelina think new gf would react to that information? What did she expect it to do for this other person? Answer: NOTHING! Because she wasn't thinking about ex or new-gf, she was thinking about herself! Angelina's behavior was in line with crazy.

And in my experience, if the shoes were on the other foot and Polly was answering Angelina's letter, she would tell her how it is….that she's acting like a crazy person and she needs to get unselfish, unegotistical (while forgiving herself) and figure out what she wants instead of dumping her emotions on other people.

Monty Johnston (#243,596)

Greener and Greener -

Good.

Try this – As you feel the jealousy acting on you, just watch her and yourself and the situation. Just watch.

Monty Johnston

quarterlifecrisis (#252,854)

To LW#1: What is this "well-paying not particularly prestigious helping-people job"? I want it!

pookiesmom (#248,639)

@quarterlifecrisis Seriously.

chantiq (#252,942)

heres another "crazy", jealous over your partner's female work same team colleague who gets a regular over 15min out of the room phone call who gets a greeting of 'hey you' everytime.
Am I crazy if I throw an eraser at him and accidentally hit him in the forehead?

pookiesmom (#248,639)

This column is multi-orgasmic. Full stop.

Dianne Smallwood (#7,694)

@ "greener and greener": relax. you've been the only female/"one if the guys" in your crew, and now your not. ive been you, fortunately the jealousy lasts .5 of a second, cause i rock, & ive put in the mileage. ive also struck the "fear/paranoia" in another women, like she does w/you – so odd considering the amt if self doubt i have in EVERY. OTHER. ASPECT. of my life. errr, im rambling. keep your chin up – im willing to bet thiers MORE than enough (quite cozy & comfy!) room on the squad for the pair of you! good luck! xo

omaiglob (#253,302)

As a healthy, stable young woman who has multiple orgasms every single time I have sex (can't control it, but its the best), I am semi-offended/amused that you cannot for the life of you believe that other ladies can be multi-orgasmic and not lying. Ridiculous.

etak81 (#252,269)

That just made me cry a bit. Incredible stuff.

BeautifullyAnnoyed (#257,855)

I am a healthy female who also has multiple orgasms… I'm not lying either!

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