Do depressives benefit from someone replicating what is screaming in their heads? "Do the work, do the work, do the work!" Sometimes you can't. Thinking you can bootstrap your way through mental illness is a great way to torture yourself. If you're a depressed person, a clinically depressed person, the first few major episodes are the worst, generally speaking. You don't know that they can end yet. One thing I can generally manage to do is walk. Nothing else. Just walk for as long as possible, preferably while listening to something entertaining. You need to somehow get out of the groove you're in. Tell your therapist in no uncertain terms that you are wrecking your life, that everything is at balance here and that stakes are really high. Schools have a lot invested in exchange programs - there are a lot of resources. To be super blunt, the thought that an exchange student might kill themselves terrifies the shit out of schools. They can do better in terms of therapy and support. You need help right now. This is not a satisfactory state of affairs. You are worth extraordinary effort. I don't think it's school - it's your response to stress and/or life in general. I would say, practically speaking, the amount of help you can get on the mental health front while you're in school - unless you're rich- is light years beyond what you can get on the outside. Go have a breakdown in the reception room. If you have ANY contacts at your new school, confess all and ask for help. Be excruciatingly honest. Allow people to demonstrate how kind and supportive they can be to a fellow human being in distress. Ugh, I have more to say about this but it would probably be repetitive. Please reach out.
And millions of indigenous people from South America. (Millions? I have no idea)
I love quinoa, not a vegan and really suspicious of articles looking to bait people for taking part in what is a complicated world agribusiness food system. I'm not even a vegetarian anymore and I can still see that a grain that has protein might be a smarter idea environmentally than feeding 4.5 pounds of grain into a chicken and then killing it to serve to already overfed people. Our food systems are colonial. Where do you think bananas and sugar come from? I hate it when link bait decontextualizes these discussions. They're important. Even when we're all doomed and we're all doomed, so what, have some quinoa.
I think I heard this on Radiolab.
Also - please write fulltime and please let me know whenever you publish anything else because this hots some kind of sweet spot I didn't know I had. Thank you.
This piece is so great. And I finally found a use for a childhood spent reading out-of-print mouldy books from the attic and so before I re-read I must tell you. Tipping the boys was established practice, if you go by the English boarding school stories I read as a child. I could never decide if it was a bribe or reward for staying out of the way while the adults visited or a horribly phlegmatic way to express affection that would otherwise have been impossible to effect given the (chliched?) English inability to openly discuss emotions. So perhaps Larkin was grudgingly participating in something expected of him, rather than being sweet.
Leon, you wonderful person, it's time for you to write a column. Your entire comment notwithstanding.
@Chris Roberts@twitter Hey look, it's That Guy again!
@hockeymom Well, they *founded* the site, so probably. Ha.
@Leon Saint-Jean Is it the holiday?