You obviously don't read much fashion writing. Let's just say if you had to take a shot every time you read the phrase "vertiginous heels," you would soon be dead. But it's a great photo!
LW1, what you want also has to come from a place of genuine (positive) desire, not fear. When we say "I want this" it too often can mean "I am afraid of this"–in your case, afraid of being alone. I've been there! It's not always easy and it takes some work, but you can do it.
By the way, I am 43 and not married, and have had two- and three-year stints of not dating ANYONE. I did the online thing with mixed success (no horrible experiences, luckily!) but then ended up with an acquaintance I've known for 15 or 20 years. I'm not saying that's what will happen for you, but the old cliche that you have to find happiness within yourself–well, I think it is true. You can't expect one person to make your life wonderful.
Yeah, we only have some of the best restaurants in the country, great music venues, 18 miles of rockin' and easily accessible lakefront (in summer at least), theater . . . but it would all be so much better if it were NYC!
My mom always had a bottle of Jean Nate underneath the sink. Now that symbolized womanhood to me, although I don't think I ever bought it more than once for myself. I remember being seduced by the Love's Baby Soft ad--specifically the teen dance ad shown above--but I didn't like the actual scent. Cue a lifetime of liking unusual, ultimately discontinued and expensive fragrances.
I only discovered DS9 was on Hulu a few weeks ago--I lost a couple of days to it. Love all the new series, even Voyager! TNG 4-EVA!