Saturday, September 11th, 2010
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Trees and Plants of Human Use and Significance

Recently I spent a week in Ithaca, where I went to Cornell from 1986-1990, or six hundred million years ago. Not having been there since graduation, I immediately noted a very important difference between my present and former self: namely, I couldn't wait to spend some time in the botanical gardens, toward which I had been largely oblivious as an undergrad.

I started out in the Robison York State Herb garden, where-because it was August and the campus was deserted-it was just me and 500 herbs (and "plants that have human use or significance"). These included Herbs of the Ancients, Bee Herbs, Culinary Herbs, Dye Herbs, Economic Herbs, Fragrant Herbs, Herbs in Literature, Medicinal Herbs, Herbs of Native Americans, Ornamental Herbs, Sacred Herbs, Tea Herbs, Savory Seed Herbs, Tussie-Mussies and Nosegays (used to ward off the contagion of conservative assholes since the middle ages), Scented Geraniums, Salads and Potherbs, and Edible Flowers.

I gravitated toward the dye herbs, which included the zinnias, whose orange petals were among the brightest in the garden. I learned that every zinnia, no matter what color, has the same dye substance, which means that each will turn wool a shade of yellow. Not being a scientist, I had no idea why this might be the case, but I regretted that I would not be returning back to New York City with a bright orange wool sweater. I wondered if the Hopi Red Dye Amaranth would turn the wool of my imaginary sweater red, but the sign did not indicate one way or the other.

In the Echinacea patch, I was struck by the fame of the flower as a homeopathic remedy against the common cold, when more obscure plants (at least to me) are possibly more deserving of fame, such as the Madagascar Periwinkle (part of the awesomely named Dogbane family), which is the source of chemotherapeutic drugs used to treat childhood leukemia and Hodgkin's disease. I imagined a corporate conference room twenty years ago, where some marketing genius made a pitch to sell Echinacea to the masses: "Everyone gets colds, right?" says Don Draper. "But everyone hates hippies. We'll just clean up the label to make it look ‘scientific' and we'll pay some real doctors for testimonials. Peggy, quit being a stupid bitch and get me a drink!"

I went to the winter garden, which despite the lack of snow was still beautiful, filled with exquisite conifers whose branches languidly draped over the stone walls. If I had to pick a favorite, it would probably be the Colorado Blue Spruce (Picea pungens ‘procumbens'), although even the lowly Juniper looked magnificent with its tiny, variegated needles spread out like a miniature forest.

I next went up to the plantations, which is what the arboretum is called. I had actually spent time here as a student, running fartleks (that's Swedish for "intervals," Beavis) with the cross-country team, and-as I walked around, enjoying the panoramic views-I felt relieved not to be on the verge of puking my guts out. I drifted over to a sugar maple (Acer saccharum ‘arrowhead') and absently turned over the identification tag; next to it I was surprised to find a second tag, explaining why the tree had been planted.

I did not know this guy. Yet I felt a genuine sorrow that of late has been largely absent for me in New York City, where I tend to view the political machinations surrounding Ground Zero with nothing but cynicism. I know this is a defensive reaction; in some ways the day is still too close and too politically charged to think about with the sensitivity it deserves, at least if we focus on those who died (each a tragedy, as the simple tag in my hand made clear). In the city, I can't separate my grief for what actually happened from my anger about what the day has come to represent, so it all sits atop my psyche like a heavy, undigested stone. But here, two hundred miles away, this uncomplicated tree seemed like the most appropriate form of remembrance. I was grateful to discover that my capacity to grieve had not been completely destroyed, when over the past decade there have been too many times when I have been inclined to think the opposite.



Matthew Gallaway lives in Washington Heights and is the author of the forthcoming novel The Metropolis Case.

16 Comments / Post A Comment

hockeymom (#143)

Unexpected ending.
Beautiful.

alexanderchee (#3,995)

This was unexpected and beautiful. Thanks.

hockeymom (#143)

great minds :)

Abe Sauer (#148)

Perfect.

Michael Kusek (#7,241)

thanks so much. all i've read today – save this piece – has been news. most of it has left me feeling pretty hollow.

i know those gardens well having been in ithaca at the same time as you.

jolie (#16)

Beautiful and touching and heartbreaking.

Astra (#7,395)

You may not have known him, but I did. Blake Wallens went to my high school.

Thank you for the tribute.

This was really touching and perfect.

I live in an NYC suburb where, for months after the attacks, there were little notes and remembrances to the people who had died everywhere you looked. You'd drive through a small town and, at the park entrance, an impromptu "memorial wall" would be covered with photographs of people who'd died, along with handwritten notes that said things like "I love you Daddy." I couldn't make the trip to or from work without crying a little every time I saw those things.

There was a commuter parking lot where a couple cars remained parked for days after Sept. 11. Maybe that had nothing to do with the attacks, but seeing it made me cry anyway.

And now I've rarely felt genuine sorrow about this for years, partly because all the politicization and posturing and crap which have overshadowed the immediate impact of these little reminders of all the real people who had died so suddenly one morning. Somehow, stumbling unexpectedly on those reminders brought home the sadness in a way nothing else could.

This piece really captured that, and I loved it.

mrschem (#1,757)

This was a salve for my soul today. Thank you.

Tuna Surprise (#573)

As someone who wasn't related to a 9/11 victim, it's easy to feel that I've lost the battle to have my memories be a part of the official version of events. I don't wear a flag pin or have a yellow ribbon bumper sticker on my car (not that I have a car-but if I did, it would be sans sticker). Instead, I stand and try to look solemn during the God Bless America ritual at Yankee stadium and turn off the TV when the new 9/11 political hijackers start braying.

So here goes-on a beautiful Tuesday morning, one of the rare mornings the city shed its crusty shell to reveal blue skies, warm sunshine and clear air, I was walking to school when I heard the sound of a plane flying very low and very fast and coming straight toward me. For a split second, I thought I was going to die. Just as quickly, I heard the plane go overhead and looked up to see it slam into the south tower. Car alarms on West 4th street went off. For what felt like an eternity, I was frozen. I eventually made it to the next street corner where a half dozen people were congregated. A beautiful young woman in a business suit and carrying a brief case was the first to break the silence. She started crying and kept saying over and over, "They were just sitting there at their desks. They were just at work."

I never cried that day. But while watching the news coverage of the missing, I became overwhelmed at how much each person was loved and how, when the chips were down, we all loved and cared for each other.

When they read the names of those who died, it's amazing to think that people with roots from all corners of the globe come here to try and make this great experiment work. We sit in office buildings with a janitor from Guatemala, an intern from Iowa, an account executive from Kenya and a secretary from Staten Island. We may have to put up defenses to get through the daily grind but on a basic level, there is tolerance and respect-otherwise this city would have crumbled long ago. I try each day to remember the feelings of love and loss in the days after 9/11 and I try to be loving and tolerant of those among us who need it most of all.

I don't need a bumper sticker or ribbon – I promise I will never forget.

Jeff Barea (#4,298)

Leaving out true sociopaths like serial killers etc, we never lose our capacity to grieve.

It's the recovery time that changes – which ironically makes us feel colder as we compare that length to the previous time.

I have friends (remarkable!) who have still never lost someone close to them and would be completely devastated while having lost hundreds myself (including 2 at WTC and 1 in the airplane that exploded days after over Queens(?)) my grief may not last overtly as long.

It's not that we become inured from the loss because of politics or fatigue or external causes. I think it's something akin to learning how to ride a bike.

The first few times are scary and you fall down and get scraped up and need time to feel comfortable again.

Many years later you're still riding (grieving) that bike (loss) but you've developed better coping techniques externally, learning how to demonstrate what the loss means to you in a positive instead of a crippling way.

Or not. Don't listen to me, I'm craaaazzzzyyyy!

Kevin Patterson (#5,933)

All of these things are true!

This is beautiful, Matt. Thank you.

Dave Bry (#422)

Yes. Wow.

Aatom (#74)

Thank you for not turning this into a slide show, a lesser site (and author) probably would have. It works much better visually and intellectually this way. Bravo.

Bittersweet (#765)

So beautiful, Matthew! I always look forward to these, but this one is my favorite, for reasons personal (I know the Cornell arboretum well – my in-laws live within walking distance) and emotional (the 9/11 tribute).

It's interesting how grief sometimes seems clearer at a distance. Of all the 9/11 news this weekend, what struck me most was hearing on local radio of a private memorial for Flight 11 at the American terminal at Logan.

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